Again the Beast decided to come out to play at 4 am this morning and wake me up with a massive attack that thankfully was aborted by my injection. I did try and get back to sleep but i had no chance. All i could do was toss and turn as the shadow or pressure feeling was just too strong and kept on irritating me. About 6 am i just gave up trying to sleep and decided to get up and start the day. I was greeted by yet more pain in the back and sides and my stomach felt like it had been put through a grinder. The wind is still developing even though i haven’t eaten or even drunk anything yet. I did take my tablets and medication and then decided to risk having a coffee to see if it would make my stomach worst. It hasn’t as yet made it any worst but i am surely not feeling any better.
The wind is still building and every now and again my temperature rises through the roof and sweat starts to poor off me. I am wondering whether i have a cold on top of every thing else that is going on at the moment. I really hope that isn’t the case but my nose don’t stop running and keeps getting sore and hard to clean it as the mucus turns hard and sharp and rips the inside of the nose. Ever since i took the verapamil and had an allergic reaction to the medication i have been going through hell with my stomach and the IBS that i have suddenly developed. I don’t understand why it has happened and why it didn’t stop when i stopped taking the medication that caused the problem. The doctor has tried all sorts of different medications to try and settle the bowls and stop all the wind building but nothing seems to work. Don;t get me wrong some of the medication does help as i would be a lot worst with out it but it doesn’t stop it completely.
The weather is about to turn nasty after the next month so i am preparing for a very rough time with my head and the beast. I am hoping it wont come to that and that the specialist will be in touch and i will be able to try another medication in order to try and get the attacks to stop all together. The ide is to put them to sleep so they don;t start in the first place rather than just try and treat the pain as there is no medication in the world that will deal with the pain i have tried them all. I have tried some of the strongest drugs known to man and some are highly addictive and may have caused me problems with my heart to appear earlier in my life rather than later. I am hoping this isn’t the case and my heart will be fine but you never know until its too late.
