Again i have been woken by the beast with an attack at 3am this morning and had to ride it until about 4.15 am. i would have taken an injection but at first it only seemed like a small attack but after about 15 minuets i was shocked as it turned into a massive attack and had me screaming in agony. It was then too late to take the injection as it doesn’t seem to work if you let the attack build to such a strength. I have been woken many times by the beast in the early hours but for some reason this time i actually dreamt that i was in pain and having an attack before i actually woke and found that i was having an attack for real.
I had my blood tests yesterday to find out why i am having so many different problems. I am convinced it is down to the nerves trapping causing me the back pain and problems with my walking but as to why my bowls and IBS is playing up so badly all the time is still a mystery. I walked up the chemist the other day to have a nasty surprise when i was half way there my legs suddenly started to feel numb as if they were about to go to sleep. It made walking extremely difficult and scared the living daylights out of me. The pain in my back was as bad as usual but why the legs whet funny i haven’t a clue. By the time i actually got to the chemist i was in a right state. Sweat was pouring off me, i was completely out of breath and i was dragging my feet as i almost collapsed on the chemist floor.
Thankfully the chemist came to my rescue and grabbed me before i fell and sat me down on a stool to recover. Within about 10 minuets of getting there and sitting down i found the feeling come back to my legs and i was fine again. I have been getting some very strange things happen to me ever since the attacks began but nothing like my legs going dead before. I have also been getting really bad problems with my back and also my bowls as i seem to be continuously producing wind and seem to be constantly constipated at the moment. The pain in the back is always at the bottom and spreads into my bum cheeks making it very uncomfortable to sit for any length of time or even stand. The only time i get relief from it all is if i lay on my back or on my right side.
Well i now have to wait a week for the results of the blood tests and will have to book another appointment with the doctor to see what is going on and what can be done to help me. My appointment with the specialist is still unknown as they cancelled my new appointment due to unforeseen circumstances and they said they will contact me shortly with the new date but i think i will end up having to chase them again. i am hoping something can be done soon as i don’t know how much more of this i can actually take. its bad enough suffering from the attacks all the time but to have back problems, walking problems, bowl problems and problems getting seen by the specialist is all starting to become too much for me. I have noticed my depression is back and is starting to get bad as i find myself in tears most evenings not knowing why i am actually crying. All i know is i need help!
