Although the reduction in my Pregabilin medication has shown that i was suffering bad side effects from the strong dosage i am now getting trouble with the attacks as they are now increasing in number. As well as having to put up with loads of attacks each day they are also growing in strength and now spread into my back, shoulder and chest. Just when you think you have one problem solved or under control along comes another one to knock you over. Don’t you think its enough having to deal with the Beast itself and the attacks that come with it with out getting all the other problems and side effects that go with the medication you use to keep the beast asleep or under control. So far i have only been able to half the amount of attacks i get in a 24 hour period and haven’t yet managed to put the beast asleep for longer than one week (7days).
Another week has passed and i feel like the living dead and my body is in automatic mode as i just don't have the energy even to make myself a coffee. Its as though my body is just doing things automatically with out thinking as having to use my brain would take up to much energy right now. By the time you get to the end of a week and have dealt with all the attacks the beast can throw at you and the lack of sleep due to you being woken up at 1 or 3am in the morning and finding it impossible to get back to sleep. The body tends to go into shut down mode and over the weekend i will find a point where i will just collapse and sleep where i am as i just can’t get the strength to do anything.
I am supposed to be decorating my flat from now until the second week in December but i just haven’t got the energy to do anything. Luckily i am employing a friend of mine that will do the painting and all the heavy work so i don’t aggravate my shoulder, back or neck and cause more attacks to appear. I am hoping we can get it all done ready for Christmas but something tells me i won;t get the whole flat done in time so i am going to concentrate on the living room, the hallway and bathroom. The other rooms can wait until the new year especially the kitchen as i am having a new one fitted by the council as well as a new bathroom suite.
Well the weather forecast seems to believe that the next week shall be relatively free from rain and sunny but still cold. Maybe it will give me a chance to get in a bit of winter carp fishing down at the local lake. I will have to see if my mate John is up for it and if he fancies going. It will get me out of the flat and into the fresh air at least. Lets hope that the attacks wont appear and they will let me go. Fingers crossed!
