Again woken by the Beast this morning with an attack that lasted just over an hour and again almost over powered the injection completely. The attack was so big the pain has spread right down the back on the left side and especially behind the shoulder blade. the pain is really sharp and no matter what you do it just doesn't ease up. As well as the back i am also getting sharp pain over the front across the chest towards the heart. I know its the nerve as i can actually feel it like a bit of elastic stretched to the areas of pain. I can feel it run up the side of my neck and into the base of the skull. Then it stretches over the top of the head and the enters back in behind the eye and down the side of the nose to the top of your jaw. Its a pain so strong that you have no way of describing it to some one. The level is so high you wish for death and will do anything to make it stop.
Today was the first day i can actually say i had a smile on my face when entering the front room. Not because the attack was over but because i have completed stage one of my re-decorating the entire flat. Thanks to my good friend John Rees, for doing all the hard labour for me, we have completed the bathroom and the living room and already started on the kitchen and hallway. The bathroom is amazing, designed by John himself, he decided to put some art work on the main wall to make it stand out and using blue. cream and a gentle touch of lemon yellow he has made the bathroom look really nice. The living room i am really proud off as it has turned out extremely nice. When i walked in this morning it was like walking into a show home and for the first time in 10 years it actually felt like my home. With a feature wall in marble blue and art work in an arc pattern it really does look smart and very calming. A nice soft black, silver and beige carpet makes the room really warm and comfortable feeling. Also with new beige Curtains and throws over the furniture to make it all look fresh and new it really does feel like i am finally home.
Stage 2 will be to complete the hallway and kitchen and then the final stage will be the bedroom.At the rate we are working we should have it all done well in time for Christmas. So for a nice treat to myself i will have a new flat for Christmas. I can’t wait until it is finished it really does look nice and keeps putting a smile on my face. I will now be able to relax in my home and concentrate on getting myself well and beating the Beast. Knowing i wont have to decorate for a while and the flat is now so easy to keep clean really takes a lot of stress off your head as it becomes frustrating when you can do the simplest of tasks because you are having attacks all the time. A simple job like painting a wall become a massive adventure and takes days instead of minuets.
Now with the flat taken care off i will also be able to concentrate on my fishing and try and get out in the fresh air a bit more. Not only will this make me feel better but will also give me a lot more exercise. I am hoping to concentrate on Large fish fishing in 2014 and see if i can get a new personal best and also catch some of the biggest fish of each species you find in the lakes and rivers. If we get good weather next year i will even camp out and do some night fishing as most of the biggest fish are caught during the night or first light when they feed in confidence. It is also nice to know that after a hard day or weekend fishing will be able to come home to a fresh new flat all clean and confortable. Lets now hope i can get to see the specialist soon and do something about the attacks and at least get rid of half of them. A reduction in the amount of attacks i get is better than nothing at all. At least i will be able to get on with things and maybe claim back some of my life. The flat is just the beginning, it’s time to keep fighting and get control of this monster or at least tame it and reduce the amount of pain i am in all the time.
