Attack after Attack after Attack, that's what it’s been like since yesterday evening. For some reason the head is really playing up.Not only have i had a lot of attacks but they have all been big ones also making it hell on earth. The pain starts behind the eye and feels like something sharp is slowly being pushed through the centre of your eyeball. The pain then shoots from behind the eye over the top of the head on the left hand side causing it to swell up like you have a ridge on your head. Then the pain enters the neck at the top of the spine. The pain then shoots down the back behind the left shoulder and also over the front of the shoulder across the left side of the chest towards the heart. The attacks are getting stronger and now have spread down my back and across my chest so i am starting to worry a little.
I believe that the attack increase is down to me reducing my medication in order to get rid of the side effects. If i go back up on the meds i may get less attacks but i will end up blowing up again and having walking and bowel problems making every day a complete nightmare. As well as last night i was also woken at 1 am and have had 3 attacks so far this morning and feel like the walking dead! So far my back and bowels have been good so i am trying not to cause them to play up as i want to try and go fishing today down at my local lake with a good friend of mine. I need to get out of the flat and grab some fresh air as i know it will make me feel a lot better but i am going to have to be careful and watch out for attacks today. As we are going down to the lake and will be in the open with the cold winds i am likely to get some big attacks so i must wrap up and take precautions and control how many i get today. I am determined to go out and enjoy my days fishing no matter how bad the attacks get, i am fed up with them ruling my life.
I can’t get to see the doctor until the 26th of this month as she is so busy and booked right up. Its starting to get a little crazy trying to get to see the doctors and specialists. Trying to book definite appointments is impossible and they end up cancelling on you and having to re arrange your booking date, It can take up to 6 moths to get a new appointment so its not good. This is the trouble with our NHS at the moment it is so over stretched and overbooked they are cancelling appointments and operations and having to make people wait for so long their illnesses and problems end up getting ten times worst by the time they are seen. I know its not the fault of the doctors or the specialists that they have to re arrange all the time but it is so hard not to get angry at them and take it out on the wrong people as all you want is to be seen and get help.
Its not long now till Christmas and it seems like only yesterday we were celebrating the new year. Time has flown past so fast this year and i haven’t done half of the things i wanted to do this year. A lot of things got put on hold due to the attacks being so bad again. I am trying to get my flat decorated before Christmas so its all nice and fresh for the new year. I can’t do it on my own as i have difficulty doing the ceiling and using a roller on the walls as my back gives up half way through and i end up having to leave it as i end up setting off attacks. My mate John is coming in this year to do it for me. I will also help and give a hand when needed but it should only take 2 or 3 days as its only a one bed flat. Fingers crossed all goes to plan and i will have it looking nice for Christmas.
