The beast is really starting to annoy me with the early morning wake up call at 2 or 3 am each morning especially when its cold. Why can’t its starts or come at 7 in the morning i don’t mind so much as its time to get up then anyway. 3 times it started to build and then no attack but on the 4th time it turned into an attack from hell. The pain was so string it over powered my injections again and i had to ride it out and have been doing so for the last hour and 15 minuets. My head is so sore that each time i touch it to rub it better it sends electric shocks from my neck down my back. The neck feels like i have something trapped in the joints again and my shoulder feels like someone has been trying to pull it off from where it joins the torso.
Winter is now here and the beast is back with vengeance. I am praying that when it turns really cold i will have seen the specialist by then and we will have some other trick up our sleeves, in the way of medication, that will be able to deal with the beast and the attacks when they come. The colder weather and freezing cold mornings is the main trigger for my attacks so by the time this weather comes i want to be as prepared as i can. I have already purchased woollen hats and scarfs to make sure i keep my head and neck warm at all times if i am out and about in the weather. I am making sure that i also have enough gas in the flat at all times and have been topping up the gas meter each week to ensure i don’t run out in the colder months. Christmas is just around the corner and so is the freezing weather so the more i can do to prepare the better as far as my head is concerned.
There is forecast a small break in the weather this Wednesday so i am going to see if i can go fishing on that day with my mate John. I think a bit of Carp and Pike fishing will do me the world of good, fresh air and time on the bank will do wonders to my state of mind and help me take my mind off all the worries and stress. Fingers crossed the weather keeps to its plans as it can be so unpredictable this time of year and change at any moment.Even if we get a bit of rain i don’t mind going as long as it isn’t raining when we set up or pack away. There is nothing more annoying than soaking wet gear all the time. Especially if wet when its been put away as it starts to smell damp all the time. Lets hope the weathers stays on our side and we get to go other wise its another week stuck indoors staring at a computer and TV.
The best thing at the moment is that my bowels are finally returning to normal after all the trouble they have put me through. Whether it is the reduction in the medication that is helping and the fact that i am no longer taking 3 or 4 different medications for the stomach that is making such a difference but i am feeling way better than i was. OK i still get some wind causing me pains but no where near the level i was getting a week ago. I am praying this change continues and i start to feel a lot better and even start to get out a bit more often.
